week 32: baby practices breathing

your baby's toenails are visible.

Although your baby's lungs aren't fully formed, he or she practices breathing. Your baby's body begins absorbing vital minerals, such as iron and calcium from the intestinal tract. The layer of soft, downy hair that has covered your baby's skin for the past few months — known as lanugo — starts to fall off this week. By now your baby might be 11 inches (280 millimeters) long from crown to rump and weigh 3 3/4 pounds (1,700 grams).

No. I am not pregnant. or at this point dating anyone really. 

 

but I have lost my ability to breathe

 I have been practicing since week 32 and now my lungs are failing me 20 years later!

i'm not responsive and i'm not breathing. 

sign me up for CPR

Finals are almost here

I am having an anxiety attack

Countless times I walk to the testing center ...

then talk myself out and walk back home

Eye of the Tiger is on replay on my ipod

I.Can.Do.This.

Paint-A-Wish

I know I've talked about this before.

Paint-A-Wish.

A program my sister and I direct

These activities give families with Chronic diseases the 

opportunity to gather together and know that they're not alone. 

usually my position covers organizing 

but today I was able to sit with the children and just play

Those kids, no matter their conditions, are the strongest and smartest children I know.

They know everything about their conditions

try saying  glycosaminoglycans 3 times

 Highlights:

It was so nice seeing the moms having girl talk,

...not something that happens on a daily, no wait, monthly basis. 

the kids were high-fiving because they found out they both can't take in sugar

The dads got off work early to just help the kids make 

structures, boats, planes, and art projects. 

I mean, it doesn't hurt having multiple 7 yr old boyfriends hahaha

That's right. every girl but me has cooties. 

what an honor haha. 

emptying a pool with pitchers.. also quite the adventure. 

These kids are the sweetest spirits I know

I am so blessed to know them personally and learn about them.

xoxo VivianDanella

 

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

I used to dream about having the adult life and adult friends like

 Ross, Monica, Joey, Chandler, Rachel, and Phoebe.

I one - upped the show. 

I mean my roommates are virtually the best

introductions: Cass, Katie, Ashley, Mich, and Mal

and how about my pseudo roommates?

Whitni, Marissa, Pepe, Aaron, Junior, Chris, and Brock

College life is so good sometimes.

Well, there are also my cute missionary friends

my little men are coming home!!! 

Anyways, this is an example of one of our midnight jams.

typical night. 

We'll go viral someday

xoxo VivianDanella

Fortune Cookie Truths

hmmmm

good thing I am a Health Major and Business Minor

seems like Buddha is on my side

I'll take what I can get!! 

also: where did i acquire such an undeniable fortune?

DISNEYLAND 

no wonder it is so perfect. I mean according to Walt Disney

“All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.” 

 

I will live by this motto forever. 

 

Thank you Disneyland, Thank you BYU, Thank you Buddha, and Thank you Spicy Noodle Bowl

 

CEO and MOM all at once... doable

Preface: So. I am going to have a sister-in-law. I can't be more excited!!! I love my one and only brother and have been waiting for the day someone would steal his little heart and make him go crazywho would have thought a little organic chemistry do the trick!

anyways. yesterday was memorial day. I love a good 4 day weekend.

yesterday my brother and brooke (his finace) came to visit us in Provo

and joined me, Ginger, Ashley, Christel, and Devan for a BBQ. 

I will bear witness about two things tonight: making lists, and the church 

#1 - Lists

• grocery lists                             
• list of my siblings favorite foods
• list of things to bring to a bbq   
• list of school work to get done 

If the list is in place... everything should go smoothly...logically

unfortunately, my list was only almost nearly perfect.

maybe I forgot condiments and matches? 

good thing for friends that come late! 

*Special thanks to Christel and her physics homework for making her late and our bbq a success.

#2 - Church

in this case, mainly the building, though don't get me wrong, I am a definite fan of the gospel. 

Everyone had the same idea and all the bbq's were full.

so on our way to a park that was miles and miles away, 

I saw a church to my left and took a quick little detour,

it was perfect, our long search was over. 

a non-populated gazebo with shade and a large bbq set. 

YIPEE!!!

in reference to the tile, so I made a strawberry sheet cookie? 

recipe for this delicious concoction

My future sister-in-law was helping me create this 

piece of deliciousness.. as she helped, she said

"you are so fancy! you are going to be such a great mom!"

YESSSSSS it's everything I aim for!! 

While getting ready, Ginger said something along the lines of 

"i don't even know where to begin!"

so I started to operate the situation.

... thank you almost perfect lists! 

then Brooke said, "Wow, you will be a CEO someday!"

I think Manuel found the perfect girl...I mean.. who doesn't like 

to hear someone tell them they are capable of fulfilling their dreams. hahaha

but really, she is great! and thanks to people like my friend Dallin, Nathan, and Cole

for dedicating their lives to protecting our country!

Confessions

So maybe I didn't go to your typical high school.

Maybe I went to a music-college prep charter school.

no. It was not like High School Musical.

I loved every moment of it... well almost every moment. 

face the music.(pun completely intended.)

you can't go through high school without having a few break downs.

anyways.

that is not the point. 

the point is. I love music. I love it more than sports. 

have I taken 4 years of music theory? yes

did I take another years worth of music classes in college for fun? yes

It's not just the classical genre I listen to.. though every once in a while it is rather soothing.

I little bit of jazz, a little bit of hip hop, a lot of bit of Kelly Clarkson, holiday music galore, and even the occasional country...yeah.. living in utah...and with mal, katie, and ash.. I caved. 

here's the real confession: 

I know...longest background info.

Sometimes i listen to just the most perfect song at the most perfect time. 

A good woman empowering song.

This super goofy grin finds its way on my face.

I look over my shoulders to make sure the coast is clear. 

Then I let my imagination wander.

Let's do a sample run:

The song "pictures of you"

without fail. every time I listen to it I imagine I'm in the last scene of a movie. 

and then the credits start to roll on the right side of me as I walk down the street. 

And i am just smiling like i have a secret. Like I just did something extremely empowering.

Sometimes.. I even do a little spin. right in the middle of the street.

I guess it's not a secret anymore.

Now it's something you can do when you're walking down the sidewalk.

everyone wants to be a star lol. 

it's even better when the leaves are golden.

yes.. this is the worlds most edited photo.
but a glimpse of what I see in my mind lol.

keep smilin'!

if i've learned in anything in this lifetime...

In this short lifetime I've lived I have learned plenty.

I have learned to play the piano

I have learned how to make friends

I've learned how to change a car headlight

I've learned to say goodbye

I've learned soooo much being here at school. 

and as much as all those things matter.

there are items of more importance.

trends change with time.

things are becoming more technical everyday.

ill probably have a robot to do chores for me in the future.

probably the biggest moral of my life thus far is:

Family is the one thing i can count on. Family is love.

"You don't choose your family.  They are God's gift to you, as you are to them" 

 I cannot say we're a perfect little tribe but we always come through.

When I think of my happier moments..it's with them.

i love every single member and my heart yearns for them everyday. 

 I am just counting the days to see my ma and pa and little lenny.

 i have a secret: i know what love is. 

Mumsy, Pa, brosky, fool, smally... this one's for you.

zamora Ganara!!!

Through a child's eyes

Paint-a-wish

I am part of an organization that creates activities for children with chronic diseases.

Gives the parents a little break

throws a smile on the faces of the children

makes my heart grow a little bigger

"Remember that the happiest people are not those getting more, but those giving more."

- Jackson Brown

 

look beyond the leprechaun trap and trees

i wish i could see her world

 This picture reminds me of the movie Neverland.

to the naked eye...she's just playing in the trees

through her telescope.. she is in a magical world full of little green men, rainbows, and pots of gold!

she even made me a telescope so i could help her scope out the leprechaun that ate her cupcake!

It was such a fun day full of cupcake decorating, bean bag tosses, plant growing, and trap making.

something i must brag about:

the bean bags.

yes i did use a sewing machine to make them.

yes i did sew in a straight line.

yes i did do it myself.

yes i did make nine of them.

....

and yes we all tried to juggle hahaha

ash is leaving math ed and starting a routine for the circus

mal and katie are catching on quickly.

i on the other hand..well...ill stick to making the bean bags.

hmmm maybe i am getting a hold of this womanhood thing.

first bean bags..next a skirt maybe?

bub.splinter.michael

Today my best friend Miguel Aaron Viramontes is going on his mission.

Spanish speaking. Mesa, Arizona.

look at what a stud he is.

He is gonna do such a fantastic job!

We met freshman year. we were mere acquaintances then.

he left the school. 

Sophomore year he graced me with a phone call.

We went out to dinner.

We have hung out ever since. 

We are best friends, I am charlie and He is splinter, we win tango competitions. This is the now.

He paid me a little visit today. a final visit.

He gave me an ipod.

he made me and my friends cute frames.

ill be missing that boy.

He is out to make a difference.

you're amazing : ) 

last words exchanged:
him: bye buddy!
me: hope you find your dad!

welp. our trio is down to ...me.
it's up to me to keep up with these long distance friendships

1507

Classy

that word envelops the best weekend ever.

we did, as a matter of fact, escape Provo and find a haven in SaltLake.

not just Salt Lake, but the Presidential Suite in the Marriott.

the epitome of classy. 

the adventure included:

My cousins Baptism. Mallory's cousins Baptism.Chuck-a-Ramas.

Mallory's Family. My brosky Manuel. Mal's brother Jordan. 

the mall, some fantastic sweaters from charlotte russe. 

Beds I'm sure were hand picked from HEAVEN.

room service..golden platters included.late night toasts. les mes.

pool. spa. hot tub.

music and the spoken word. temple square.

love advice from the waitress. photo shoots.

really a little bit of everything.

thank you grandma and grandpa hart for sponsoring such a relaxing vacation.

love you tons: Viv.D, Mall.H, Katie.O

VISUALS:

sweaters that flatter all

our new natural habitat

christus color coordination

our humble porch view

temporary abode

xoxo... the 3 of us

A tribute to my Mal Gal

let me speak of this wonderful girl right here:

For your indulgence let me introduce you to Mallory Hart!

I love her.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY YOUNG 20 YR OLD! 

You know when  you meet people and you just fit so perfectly together?

I tease a lot but I really do think we were friends in a world of the past.

side-traction

We were roommates our freshman year of college along with our Ashley. 

Together. unstoppable. the three of us made up the chimpunks:

first roommate picture ever!

not quite sure we even like each other yet in this picture.

well we do now! enough to endure each other for another year

back to Mal

*we always tease about her being a Woman of Opinion.

I hope it is never taken as demeaning that we tease.

I think it's great that she knows exactly what she wants and is not ashamed of it

* Mal is a woman full of profound wisdom for the minimal years of life she has fulfilled.

She  has taught me things from how to make brownies to how to fill my life with the spirit

*Mal really does live life to the fullest. We never have a dull moment.

Whether it be just talking before we sleep, going dancing, or going out for Macey's ice cream

I enjoy her presence, witty comments, and how she can read my mind

* Mal is probably one of the most consistent friends I have met.

If I am having a mid life crisis at the age of 18, she always comes through.

"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one." C.S. Lewis

This is my friend Mal, she is part of my college home..because home is where the heart is.. and when we met, she became a part of it.

Sick as a Dog

PREFACE:  this past week my friend Michael paid me a little visit. I was soooo excited for him to come!! He is leaving on his mission fairly soon to Arizona, spanish speaking for two years so this is one of the last times i get to see him. The day he is supposed to fly in he sends me a text, low and behold, he has a fever. BLAST! no big deal. this kid never fails me. he comes anyways. We have such a great time. we just do a quick grocery run so we can make dinner the next day. I have known him from six years and never knew of his culinary skills. Here is the proof:

Our own little Mexican Fiesta

Michael left the water running for a little too long. minor bubble fight.

. ALSO:

greatest thing- The first time Michael and I reunited we decided to go to ChuckeCheese. We were 16. we also go carded. yes. carded. we were not eighteen so we weren't allowed into this child friendly zone. 

sooooo

i get this text..

viv, I have a childhood promise I made to you that I need to fulfill.

Yes, we went to ChuckeCheese with his niece Anjalina. It was soo much fun! 

 THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU 

for an amazing two days. 

Longest PREFACE ever

shall we recall he was sick?

well now mall and I have also fallen. 

Blast. 

In effort to bring light into these dark ages, I was thinking of the things that have brought laughter in my life this past week.

1. The Cosby Show~ 

that family is full of laughs, it's almost like being back home.And isn't

Raven the cutest little nugget ever?? 

2. Tropicana caps~ 

LOOK! they're mini oranges, i just noticed.

3. Cassi's chicken soup~

it literally touched my heart and warmed my soul.

I have never had anything so tasty.

4. my lip~

The other night I was droozed.

The medicine I was on had overcome my being. 

I was sitting talking to my cassi girl and then my lip just started swelling.

I had no explanation. Then my lip went momentarily numb. I could not

not stop licking my lip.

5. My Family ~

I have never seen so much family. All three of my aunts

came to visit me with gifts of food in hand. They

really do pull through and I love each of them so much.

6. Brethren ~

In light of the dark situation, I invited our good old home teacher

to our house. He provided the sweetest laying on of hands experience.

Later, he came with sandwiches. 

7. Ashley ~

She has been amazing! I have never seen anyone with a stronger immune system either.

It really is a surprise she hasn't caught the spreading plague.

 She has taken us to the doctor, made us soup, made us brownies

and just taken care of us. I love her.

Currently the best remedy: the love of family and friends

The storm shall pass. As for now, I'm alive and happy.

*sidenote: funny how just when you're losing your voice, the whole world seems to call

what's in a name...

my name: Vivian Danella Zamora

the middle name is nothing less than

crucial

half my identity lies in "Danella"

my second entity. my first life. 

just call me hannah montana. i do indeed 

have a second persona or visage if you please.

Danella~God is my judge

Vivian~full of life, 

name of the Lady of the Lake, an enchantress... cool

i'll take it!

most people wish they were named differently

i don't.

vivian is alive and exciting, danella sweet and savvy 

both together. so eloquent. 
never heard a name like it.it's like shopping for a dress in a boutique rather than target. classy and unique.

good job parents

although

vivian is my first name,most[including myself] only knew danella for my first years of life. 

why???

my parents failed to tell me of "vivian"

i got to kindergarten and my teacher called out to me.

no reply.

that's the moment i learned i was a vivian.who knew?

i sure didn't.

she, ms. awalk, barbie of a teacher, asked if i preferred

to be known as danella. naahhhhh. this proves i have always been  up to trying new things...like my first name. 

I settled.

Vivian at school. Danella at church.

my worlds quickly collided and turned into a mash up of Vanilla

Got to BYU, school integrated with church.oy. I couldn't play this game anymore.

so now i'm simply vivian to the world and danella at home with the minor close friend exceptions. 

but i never want to lose either name.

they're just so...me!